Emotional drama is about an
angry bitch today. I've never been the type of woman who went looking for gossip or who wanted the latest scoop on the "
Oh-Em-Gee!! BECKY
LOOK AT HER BUTT he-said she-said" bull shit....occasionally, however, drama
pimp slaps me clean across the face. Screams, tears, laughs, and numbness all in one day. You could blame it on a thousand and one things today and I would say "
yes that's it." Because, yes, that is it!
EUREKA!!* But the problem is "
yes!" is the answer to everything. I was
angry because of (
insert random stupid reasons). I was hysterically crying because of (
insert another random stupid cry-baby reason). It all sounds right, it all
feels right,....and it all
towers above me on days like today.
Lashing out at those who love me and are trying their best to help me is not a norm for me. (
Although occasionally I think about peeing in their cheerios) It became another one of those
"HOLY SHIT! WHO IS THIS MONSTER OF A WOMAN LIVING IN MY SKIN AND WHY CAN'T SHE AT LEAST BRING ME A NICER RACK?!" days. (Ok I totally think this bitch owes me
AT LEAST that) I'm not usually
THAT quick to pop the
ANGRY BOSS macro. (Usually better at misdirect!
/cast MD on
the dude next door, the
mailman or the freaking
dog for all I give a shit anyone to keep my omen meeter from
popping!!!) Not usually so fast to point fingers and blame and play the guilt card. But
occasionally I get to go all
RAAAAWR KIERA SMASH and then twenty minutes later look around me at the path of
destruction I've left behind and the only thought that comes to mind is.. "Ahhh
fuck....I MAY have over-reacted
slightly....
my bad guys!"
As you read through this particular blog it's pretty easy to chuckle....to "omg" or "lol" ...truth be told....I made this one to make myself feel better. I wanted a laugh at my own expense so I wouldn't have to face reality. (Which seems to be my go-to nowadays.) I'm afraid. I'm emotional. I'm anxious. I don't know what I did. What I'm doing. What TO do. What it boils down to is this:
I am only human. And every human has a breaking point.
I couldn't help but laugh. XD I understand that when you wrote this, you are going through a tough time, but I couldn't help it!
ReplyDeleteLOL don't feel bad girl!!
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